since pinata and everyone else's journal gets sent to me, i've finally decided to write one myself.

i have guard practice tomorrow. 6 p.m. to 9 p.m. which is totally cool.

i have leadership beforehand at 4 p.m. which SHOULD be totally cool.

but it isn't.

not when i'm told the day before, and my mom is making this huge dinner 'cause the step family is leaving the day after [THANK GOD, OR ATHEOS, whatever...], so my mommy's not too happy.

i have major writer's block, and noelle needs more of her music recorded so i'll have some sort of inspiration. seriously, this writer's block is so bad that this JOURNAL is gonna be bad.

i never thought i'd say this, but i wish band camp wasn't so long. i never have had something better to do, but now i kinda do. it sucks.

and football games. never thought i'd say that i hate the fact that we have to go to them. but i just might, depending on a couple things.

i just finished Macbeth, and i have decided Macbeth is a complete moron who deserved to be killed.

and Lady Macbeth? stupid bitch was home free, she could have just turned her husband in, after Macduff's wife was murdered of course, comforted Macduff, married him. and she STILL would have been queen.

but stupid guilt took her over. that made me mad. Lady Macbeth was awesome at the beginning of the play [see "cold hard bitch" by Jet], totally relentless and just AMAZING. then she was all guilt-ridden, and killed herself like any other weak person. i mean, come on! you've already done the deed, at least milk it for all it's worth, what's the worse that's going to happen?

just like frickin' Narcissa Malfoy. she goes all soft. admittedly, it was for Draco, which is way more understanding. Lady Macbeth just took a coward's way out because she felt bad. Narcissa gave up what she believed because the people she loved were in danger. You could probably argue that Narcissa's character was essentially good and loving, her morals were skewed, however.

Narcissa is like the middle ground between Bellatrix and Andromeda. Bellatrix is the perfect example of how Lady Macbeth SHOULD have been. Ruthless, stopping only in death caused by another. The only difference between Bellatrix and Lady Macbeth was when Bellatrix killed, she got a thrill from it. She was driven insane, but into the grounds of more murder. Lady Macbeth on the other hand was driven to insanity, which only hurt herself.

now that i've had that little rant, i think i'm going to stop (:

yay for my first REAL journal.